Sunday, February 20, 2011

Fat Jeans

"The cardiologist's diet:  If it tastes good, spit it out."  ~Author Unknown

 As part of my Bucket List for 2011, I put down that I want to overhaul my room to make it look like an actual room and not someone that's been living out of boxes for the past 3 yrs. I don't know why I just can't keep my room cleaned. I'm a 34 yr old female slob. I don't think I'm a horder by all means I do throw stuff away. I just can't seem to be good at organizing. I can do that at work and at other things around the house when I put my mind to it, but I'm just stupid lazy when it comes to my room.

Anyway, my messy room is not what I'm blogging about. That'll be for another day. As I was filling up another bag of junk to be donated to a second-hand store I came across my massive collection of demin. It's not as massive as it used to be when I would put together Clothing Swaps. But I know that I have picked up another pair or two when I was in my fat stage and in the process of losing weight. So I decided to try some of them on to see what I can get rid of. I've gotten rid of all but one of the too small jeans (I keep that one pair as motivation to try to fit into it when I reach my goal weight). Lo and behold! I have two pairs of jeans that are TOO BIG!
This was taken by Vince when I was doing set up with Alex 2.11.11. Look how awfully saggy my butt looks in those jeans! I just actually looked at these pics a couple days ago and never realized how much weight I lost.

OMG! That's never happened to me before. For me, denim has either been too small or too worn out for me to get rid of. I took one of these pairs of jeans from a Clothing Swap 2 yrs ago cuz I wanted, no needed, a pair of decent looking denim that actually fit comfortably and not just fashionably. I was wearing one of these with leggings underneath due to the cold Chicago weather as added warmth while trudging the streets taking the bus and train. With the weather getting better, I can actually get rid of them. Holy cow! I can get rid of them!!! YAHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't get me wrong tho. Yesterday when I was dropping the bags off to Goodwill, I did have to fight the strongest of urges to go dive back into those bags and retrieve my, "fat jeans,"  for the, "just in case I gain the wieght back," drawer (I'm in the process of getting rid of that drawer as we speak. It's a mental thing). I had to remind myself that I can't keep on looking back and to just move forward. It's the only way to get actually reach my goals. When it comes to weight loss, the healthy kind of weight loss, I need to focus on the now and not look back. I can remember how things used to be and how it made me unhappy inside. That should be enough to keep me going, right? So I didn't look back when I tossed the bags into the donation bin and walked away with my head held high and no looking back. Just moving forward.

Monday, January 3, 2011

2011...the year of giving thanks

I would thank you from the bottom of my heart, but for you my heart has no bottom.  ~Author Unknown

Happy New Year everyone!

So after rereading my Bucket List on here and reposting part of it on my Facebook page as a note, I decided that the year 2011 will be my year of gratitude. I have so much to be thankful for and I don't feel as if I did enough of that last year. I know that I've taken things for granted, such as friendships and relationships with Vince and my family. Deep down inside I know that I need to give recognition to the people around me and make them realize that they are making a difference no matter what they do. There are 365 days in the year. I should be able to find that many people to thank, don't you think?

So, the first person that I decided to give thanks to is Vince.

He has been the greatest boyfriend in the history of all boyfriends. He has stuck by me through alot last year and he still continues to be there for his friends as well as my friends. He takes care of me and lets me lean on him when I need it the most, even when I don't realize that I need it. I honestly can't thank him enough, but I can at least try and promise him to be a better friend, girlfriend, and whatever he needs me to be for him.
I personally designed a thank you card at work to give him with some rare pictures of me and of us together from last year. He loved it.

Next up I thank my Dad.

My Dad tried to raise me the best way that he could after my Mom passed away going on 16 years ago. He is not a perfect man and shows his love for me in the oddest ways, but he loves me regardless and I know that if he could he would give me the world. I sent him a birthday card to thank him. Yeah, I know that his birthday isn't until July, but I've been holding on to this card for him for a long time and I keep on forgetting to give it to him. Better late than never right?

Anyway, that's it for now. Don't be surprised if I ask you for your mailing address. I might be thanking you at some point too :)