Sunday, February 20, 2011

Fat Jeans

"The cardiologist's diet:  If it tastes good, spit it out."  ~Author Unknown

 As part of my Bucket List for 2011, I put down that I want to overhaul my room to make it look like an actual room and not someone that's been living out of boxes for the past 3 yrs. I don't know why I just can't keep my room cleaned. I'm a 34 yr old female slob. I don't think I'm a horder by all means I do throw stuff away. I just can't seem to be good at organizing. I can do that at work and at other things around the house when I put my mind to it, but I'm just stupid lazy when it comes to my room.

Anyway, my messy room is not what I'm blogging about. That'll be for another day. As I was filling up another bag of junk to be donated to a second-hand store I came across my massive collection of demin. It's not as massive as it used to be when I would put together Clothing Swaps. But I know that I have picked up another pair or two when I was in my fat stage and in the process of losing weight. So I decided to try some of them on to see what I can get rid of. I've gotten rid of all but one of the too small jeans (I keep that one pair as motivation to try to fit into it when I reach my goal weight). Lo and behold! I have two pairs of jeans that are TOO BIG!
This was taken by Vince when I was doing set up with Alex 2.11.11. Look how awfully saggy my butt looks in those jeans! I just actually looked at these pics a couple days ago and never realized how much weight I lost.

OMG! That's never happened to me before. For me, denim has either been too small or too worn out for me to get rid of. I took one of these pairs of jeans from a Clothing Swap 2 yrs ago cuz I wanted, no needed, a pair of decent looking denim that actually fit comfortably and not just fashionably. I was wearing one of these with leggings underneath due to the cold Chicago weather as added warmth while trudging the streets taking the bus and train. With the weather getting better, I can actually get rid of them. Holy cow! I can get rid of them!!! YAHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't get me wrong tho. Yesterday when I was dropping the bags off to Goodwill, I did have to fight the strongest of urges to go dive back into those bags and retrieve my, "fat jeans,"  for the, "just in case I gain the wieght back," drawer (I'm in the process of getting rid of that drawer as we speak. It's a mental thing). I had to remind myself that I can't keep on looking back and to just move forward. It's the only way to get actually reach my goals. When it comes to weight loss, the healthy kind of weight loss, I need to focus on the now and not look back. I can remember how things used to be and how it made me unhappy inside. That should be enough to keep me going, right? So I didn't look back when I tossed the bags into the donation bin and walked away with my head held high and no looking back. Just moving forward.

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