Someone that's trying to find herself that's lost in this miasma called life.
Monday, October 19, 2009
"Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free, I'm following the path God laid for me. I took his hand when I heard his call, I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day, To laugh, to love, to work, to play. Tasks left undone must stay that way, I've found that peace at the end of the day.
If my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy. A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah, yes, these things too I will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow, I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My Life's been full, I savoured much, Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me, God wanted me now, He set me free."
This has been a year of lots of sadness for me. I feel as if I've experienced enough illnesses and death that should have lasted at least a decade. Cancer has been the worst of it all. I have friends and family that all have been affected by some kind of cancer. October being breast cancer awareness month, all I can think of is my two aunts; one from my mom's side and one from my dad's side. One aunt is still fighting for her life because cancer just can't seem to let her go. The other aunt is attempting to live her life to the fullest despite the change in her body. I'm currently living with one of my bestest friends that is suffering from complications of colon cancer. My grandmother is being tested for possible pancreatic or liver cancer as we speak. I lost a wonderful great aunt in the Philippines to pancreatic cancer. My cousin's wife Aive lost her beautiful cousin Vicki to leukemia. My cousin Vivien lost her best friend Celia to lung cancer. All of this has happened or is happening this year. All I can think of right now is when will it end? I need to get out of this saddening slump. I don't want to lose sleep or wake up feeling so sad anymore.
What's to know about me? I AM: college educated, but always learning, a female beer drinker, the best person to make yummy edible creations, an insomniac, a great listener, a camera toter, a picture taker, a personal shopper, addicted to music and art, in love with love (I don't have to be in love to love it, does that make any sense?), a person that will have a clean bathroom but a messy bedroom, attempting to be a fundraising extraordinaire, a great listener to different languages spoken and accents, a person that has cookie dough in the fridge in case of emergencies, a problem solver, a fabulous clothes folder, a bit on the OCD side, the bestest friend you'll ever have, and a bunch of other things. If you want to know more, ask....